Thursday, June 27, 2013


Read this article.

No seriously, read it. Does it make sense to you?

I agree with having the choice for abortion - I am pro-choice. But I also consider myself pro-quality-of-life. I do believe that the quality of the life that is saved should be taken into consideration. That is why I am not pro-birth. I don't think every fetus that is conceived should be born - and there are many factors for why a fetus should and shouldn't be aborted.

If I was unsure of being able to provide for a child, I would have aborted, I would have made different choices. But I can care for my child (with help from the government, family, and Sean's family). Z's quality of life is pretty high.

There it is. Be careful, there is a distinct difference between pro-life and pro-birth.

Friday, June 21, 2013


Zelda hasn't breast fed in a week.

She turned 19 months this week, and last Friday I said, "This is the last time I am going to breast feed her." Each night she crawls into my lap and signs 'milk' then 'please.' It breaks my heart when I say, "No more, boobie broken."

"Boobie broken," feels more like "Mommy broken." She screams on my lap until she finally lays her head down and falls asleep.

I just couldn't do it any more. My nipples are sensitive, I am done leaking, and honestly she doesn't need it. I didn't have Magic Boob that just instantly put her to sleep. Z doesn't nurse in the middle of the night, and she doesn't need boob to fall asleep.

So I treasure the minutes she sleeps with me, the cuddles that happen in the middle of the night, and the 'hi!' that wakes me in the morning sometimes.

The real sadness comes from the fact that this may be the only child I every breastfeed. That I am not going to have this stage of my life again. I'm not intending to have another child, so my pregnancy and breastfeeding is over. And that's it.

I gave everything I could to Zelda. And I hope that I am doing right by her by saying is't time to be done.

"Boobie broken," but that doesn't mean I love her any less.

Thursday, June 6, 2013

My Home Garden 1

Alright, you caught me. I have been trying to grow my own food. Mostly I have been using the tutorials of 17 apart which I found through my friend Meg's blog minimeg. She needs to have children and start making super cute stuff for them. SERIOUSLY! I really like the graphics and the variety of things, and I also don't have to get into pintrest.

Not that I'm against pintrest, but I just can't figure out how to use it.

I decided to go with beefsteak tomatoes, yellow squash, cucumbers, spinach, and two different types of melons. To my dismay, I am about 3 months too late to get any good melons this year, but hopefully if I can keep them in pots I can save them through the winter and keep them alive. Maybe. We'll see.

I am terrible with before and after pictures, so here is my in the middle picture. I used the eggshell seed starters, some potting soil for indoor/outdoor plants, and got everything off of amazon for less than 30 bucks. Then I got some pots from the dollar store because I'm a cheapo. I also have an avocado seed I am trying to get to grow roots and a pineapple that has roots and has been transplanted to it's own pot.

Late May seedlings. 
June 2013 seedlings. So many plants. 
I'm hoping to do some budget slicing. Hopefully.